Shy: Full Of Life

My dog shy has got to be one of the best gifts given to me in my life besides my other dog Angel who passed last year. Angel was given to my moms but this dog Shy was given to me. She is full of energy, curiosity and life. The representation of who I strive to be in the days that past. May sound weird but she has this personality with her that can light up people faces and make them laugh and adjust to her energy. Weird huh? That's how i want to be in life. and i want to strive for it

Her Baby Died

Her baby died on a Saturday afternoon..
her heart cried but no emotion ran high on the outside
He told her he didn’t want the baby from her, yet he didn’t mind a kid...
She was a high risk pregnancy, she wanted it to live.
Excited by the idea, but torn from a past love.
He was a heartless soul who time after time smashed her.
She changed her number and hope later they can be friends but it made em angry
He never be the same again
So when she told him the news he was for the responsibility
He questioned her though he been the only one in, he took her virginity
He doubted her truthful though he was the one full of lies..
he didn’t want to talk to her, he couldn’t look her in the eyes..
He called her crazy, he spit on her name, he didn’t care for her
He never be the same
Driving her in pain she spit words of acid at his ear
She missed him but couldn’t say sweet things to make him appear..
Her fear trying to live without him and he not wanting to be a father...
So when he said he didn’t want the child by her, it drowned her in water..
All good some weeks ago, he moved in for the slaughter...
Manipulation of the mind, pinned her so behind, she was discouraged by his reply
Truth be told love is cold, left her with no comfort or check up so he would never know.
She lost her baby on a Saturday..
Alone now hoping for better days..
And where is he?
With a new person he celebrates..

REFRESH (dedicated to MBW)

REFRESH, RESET, SEE THE WORLD…
DEPRESSED NO MORE COMPRESS NO MORE A LITTLE GIRL
HIGH STEP IM BLESSED I SEE A NEW CURVE
FOCUS IN HIGH DEF
SO HARD I HAD TO LEARN
LOVE SELF LOVE LIFE
GIVING MYSELF WHAT I DESERVE
TIME TICKS I GET THE BEST OF EVERY MINUTE
I WISH THINGS WERE A BIT DIFFERENT
BUT THE PRESENT IS WHAT’S PRESENTED
NO NEED TO BACKTRACK I STEPPED THAT TOO MUCH
I’VE SAID THINGS I’VE SHOULDN’T AND FUCKED UP
BUT CANT CHANGE THOSE THINGS ALL I CAN DO IS BE HERE NOW
SEE CLEAR NOW…
DO U SEE WHO I’AM NOW?
WANT THE BEST FOR YOU THAT A NEVER CHANGE
WANT THE BEST FOR ME SELF LOVE IS THE BIGGEST THING
THINGS A NEVER BE THE SAME, BUT ITS A NEW LIFETIME..
OUR MOVIE WAS SCRIPT COULD BE ON LIFETIME.
BUT HAPPY ENDINGS I JUST WONT HAVE WITH YOU.
PAINTING A NEW BEGINNING REFRESH AND BRAND NEW
PAST REMINDS ME ALL THE TIME, CANT GO NO WHERE WITHOUT THINKING BOUT U
BUT IM HERE NOW CLEAR NOW, WAVES CLEAR, SAILING WHILE THE SKY IS BLUE
LEARN LIVE, A GROWTH AND I CAN STILL THANK U..
BUT I THANK MYSELF 4 BEING WHAT U NEVER THOUGHT I DO
REFRESH SMILES SHAPE AND NOW ITS NOT SO BAD
PUT INTO A DOOR LOCKED DELETE AND FORGOT WHAT HAS MADE ME MAD
NEW CLASS OF MY OWN, FEELING GOOD AS I HOPE IT GETS BETTER FOR US BOTH!
BUT FINALLY IN A SUMMERY CONGRATULATIONS I’VE MOVED ON!!

This is dedicated to a friend MBW and tho he never see it.. made me smile the face I can speak this way and feel so strong about it. All love. Kisses till next time

down to the wire, i be there