FOCUS PUSH ACT AND ACCOMPLISH- Dedicate- discipline

I have learned the most important lesson this year, yesterday as I talked to my aunt, co-workers and myself.

My aunt said its best. "Its time to focus on you and don't ever put someone higher then yourself or god, because then that makes them a GOD and its ONLY ONE GOD." Well said Auntie!!

Then my co-worker told me, "just give things time and see what i grow to be but its outside those doors of your house, go get it!" Damn RIGHT co-worker lol.

The funny thing is people been telling me for a minute to do me and i was. But somewhere i had got lost again. Caught up in the battles of love and confusion i had seriously thought i was missing something and couldn't got on without it. Only thing missing i told this man a few days back is Dedication and Discipline. They go hand and hand with anything. You can not have discipline with out dedication. Each day that go by its a battle. And i cant put it all on love because love is not all i am missing now. Love and being in a relationship i put my all into. That was my fault. I should a put half of me into it but never loose myself. Trust And Believe I lost myself.

Its been bout three months. and I cried like a little child yesterday lol. but not just because he is gone lol BECAUSE I WAS GONE!!!

MUSIC has saved me again!! And so will GOD in due time. When I DISCIPLINE AND DEDICATE TIME :-) I AM MORE AND MORE!!

Im meant for something more.

So that being said. I set the date for my video. 27th of this month. Also I got a Chicago try out this week via video that I am excited about and also I am grabbing them guys together. B.ALIVE guys. That's my company. My Baby. I been giving the members in the company space not because of me but personal issues we all seem to have. But don't cut us short.

Iam also almost done my project.
Also Stepping out on a leaf this Saturday taking some exotic fitness for my stage performance and to get in shape lol. :-) love that.

Dedicate, and discipline.
One of my old sayings was simple
FOCUS PUSH ACT AND ACCOMPLISH
if u have that mind frame you are unstoppable.
I had it at one point.
I will get it back.

till next time.

Motivation was good to eat.

Sharpen my skills and ready to just do what I need to in order to take myself to a new level. I am excited as I see now its more to do and its more out there then these little problems I have. I will begin classes to improve stage performance next week and also help me tone up.

I also have a video in the makes that I am excited about that will be promotion for my mixtape as i work on another project.

A deal came threw with a Chicago connect. If they like me i will be there in Sept. at their african fest. I am blessed. Maybe somethings are ment to happen after all.

I composed a good outline yesterday of my weekly direction. It was good to try to put myself on a schedule. I know many people dont think I can do it but i damn sure will try. My moms say i never stick to most of the stuff i say i will do. Motivation ate! It was good lol so i will try harder.

The biggest move is making them inside then working your ways outside. I have to work harder! I have to be stronger

the mind bender.. Being there for me.

I'm at work thinking. I got so much waiting for me its just time to get it. Sunday I head to NYC for the "D.M.V meets NYC" showcase. Also got a shot to perform in chicago for their african fest. So all this sits there waiting for me. But this little man is in my head throwing shit out of order. Its also a woman there too confused. Never thought I be one of those woman so effected by a man but I am. Seven years gone is hard to forget. Its been two months and my ass struggles to still move on from a cheating ass lie. Two times. Eve said love is blind. HELL YEA. But I made the choice a day ago not to be put into this game no more. Why beg for something back that was not cool anyways. So I step into the music and hopes it saves me again.

I went to the mall today with a close friend. As I went I threw out the mind bender and lived. I had fun with my friend and peeped my music as the step that needs to work with my school. I am slowly getting back on track but I have a cold heart. I been so different additude wise. I kinda like it. Not giving a fuck can get you far if u choose not to give a fuck about certain things that deserve it.

NYC Sunday such be a boost.
A nice little vacation with someone who cares about me is coming up too.. can't wait..

Music, mind ,body, soul
Educate grow and let shit go.
A lot of people don't care. They pull ya string and laugh at u. Leave u fucked
I can't be that person no more.
I gotta be there for me.

Personal Look/Hip-Hop With Substance

The biggest let down a person can allow to happen is the one you issue to yourself. I allowed that to happen today. I most definitely took a loss today by allowing my emotions block me from progress. I got to big bump to get over and I entertained something I already knew the answer to. End result was a fail to myself because I put myself back.

Shifting my focus back on music im a continue to blog and treat this here joint like a dairy or outlet that partners with music and school. Getting in the habit of dedicating time to something such as this shall help me with dedicating time period. Lets see if I can keep it a habit.

Anyways to other news I been listening to a lot of old school rap lately. Bumping that music it in my car everyday. I notice one important factor that everyone whos a hip-hop head should notice. Back then the messages in the music was the key. A club track had a hot beat and the messages were there in the music. Those who dont know what I speak of listen to the the song by CHUBB ROCK : “Treat Em Right” peep the video below





The video wasn’t much but the song was a hit all around. A club song that had a message. Its many more by I raise the question why do this do not exsist anymore? Why is it so absent and what the fuck is “My Doggie” go sit ya doggie ass down somewhere. Wheres ya message. See in most of my songs I try to deliver a message and stomp out my stereotype while others flow with the stream. The bum rush of old school james have really lifted my spirts Heavy D “We Gotta Own Thang” was like a club track with a message once again for that time. Do you remember “Gangsta’s Paradise” by Coolio. Not a club track but had a message in it that maybe people cant see. The words in it by the vocalist “tell me why are we/ so blind to see/ that the ones we hurt/ are you and me” .. I guess messages don’t mean much to people no more. Honestly I don’t know what the hell Lil Wayne is saying most of the time. The punchlines are nice but dude what are you talking about. No substance. Based on what I heard from him which maybe ten songs maybe that’s all I can say about yo. But check it, lets have more substance and meaning in our rhymes people. Lets bring at least that element of hip-hop back..


side bar: didnt chubb rock remind u of biggy in that video and the guy in the white was puffy?? lmao JUST A JOKE!!

In Perspective.

Registering for my fall classes and I know its going to be a tough semester. My mind is on the road of recovery. Its better then it was before the sudden break-up. Who would a knew this shit a be so hard and good at the same time. When things take place in our lives and we loose something important to us, we soon see the broad picture that was being blocked by what we thought was important. My friends, I don’t have many. They seasonal like sports. Some I see quick to jump hills when you need them the most. Also put in perspective is how much I dislike living in Baltimore. I want to see so much more then this. I want to expand and just go. I want so much. Also my family has been put in perspective, how much I havnt been around some parts of my family and how I should be around. All this has come clear because of one misplacement or loss. Weird huh?

My music is my closest friends besides three of my co-workers lol.

Doesn’t that make me sound pathetic??

But I know I’m not pathetic.
I know I’m unique in ways that can not be expressed into a humans mind. They really don’t make woman like me no more. May sound cocky but damn it’s the truth and I can better show you then tell you. The outlook on one self has definitely broadened though I still gotta a lot of work to do. Clearing my mind to look at the bigger things in life.

Anyways I head back to the studio tomorrow to record two tracks maybe three. One name “Dance Like Beyonce” LOL very different type of track that has a swing to it. If I lay it right it may be something. Next track called “ Single”, opening my arms to the world of being single with a club beat that many should relate to . and last but not least the track “Over Years” expresses how my fuck ups and missed opportunities have made time past me and im just reflecting on shit I can not change. If I get to three tracks I shall be happy.

My musical clan I have decided that I can not take care of currently to the full potential that I would like to. Im saving for a house and don’t have the funds to push men in the direction they need to be pushed in. Im still working with them but the site being closed down until further notice is the best next step for now. $20.00 a month for a website that’s not getting any new updates shows and so forth should be put on the back burner. The guys need studio time. The guys need to write. The guys need to get some things in order and so do I . We all on the same page almost.

Things are coming to an order in my head.
Not so clutter.
Not so distressed ..
But perfectly clear
In perspective.

No Issue (F**K IT) -- JINXXX New Song

Check out this new hip-hop.. For more on me and my music go to www.LadyJinxxx.com

Take Control Of My Life..

Ive come to the conclusion that my dreams and the things I reach for are all in my control if I gain control. Life for me is so unbalanced. I have millions of ideas to double money, a dream to be a rapper and a heart to help whoever I can by a extent. I go to school, I work full time and try to hit the studio but dwell on the things that are missing such as Love and Friendship, or a lost 7 yr relationship.

Today I found myself sleeping more hours then usual. I had no drive to get up and deal with anything. I didn’t want to work out and I didn’t want to be bothered but then I did get up, hit the grocery store and hit IHOP with a friend. I pulled myself into the driver seat because I felt as tho I wasn’t driving. This is how my life is with everything. I need to take the wheel. I need to grab a hold of my life dreams and shoot for it instead of talking.

This life is not promised. This life was given and I have a gift.. I gotta take control. I HAVE to take control!! I must take control. If I don’t I will never drive the roads I want to be on.. SIMPLE AS THAT!

Negative ppl i need to get rid of...
I cant be like everyone else.
Iam not like everyone else..

What am i waiting for..?

She's Gone

Old school joint blasting "shes gone" and yes i been gone for a very long time from blogging and expression of how i feel and whats been going on. Writing has always been my outlet but i put that into someone i shouldn't had. Instead of using the mic as a outlet i used another crutch. My boyfriend of 7yrs. But two months ago he walked out on me. He abandon me and left me for dead for his own reasons of dumbness. It knocked me off my feet and today i stand new. I have to stand new. IM 22! and im looking for my music to save me once again. Im looking for that mic to wave at me and im looking for all direction in the world. One thing you don't do is invest time into only one thing no matter what you do. MEANING i put too much time into something that failed. When i could have been multi tasking stroking music and him at the same time. lol. Sounds raw don't it? Am i angry? HELL YES iam. I wont be the same. But in a way not being the same can be the best move i make.

Shes GONE

Yes i was but im back now. Its not like anyone missed the girl or anything because my work has not really put in like it should have ..

I WAS LOST! keep me sain now keep me good I pray.

Im still lost but the point is i made advances to change that.

It was his lost and i came to terms wit it and its my lost cause of so much time i wasted rejecting my other love... MUSIC!

So im a try to get focus now. Vent more. Write more. Learn more And DO IT! enough talk. ACTION IS THE RIGHT MOVE!

peace till next Time