Artist Jinxxx Speaks On 2010 & 2011 MEN and ADVICE

So Ive decided to do a video blog on what i been going threw and the changes and all wanta see how those work out.. check it out and tell me what u think via email or bottom of the page!! thank u! Just talking about men, my music and a lil advice to some of my ladies out there.

Better Run Run by KING HAMMER-- Jinxxx Thoughts

Everybody that knows me know that I am a hip-hop fan first before I was a artist. I came across the diss that HAMMER put out on Jay-Z and couldn't help but be mad. Hammer has been away from the game for a very long time. So what has sparked this beef or diss I shall say is it what Jay said in one of his songs..

"I lost 30 mil so I spent another 30.
'Cuz unlike Hammer 30 million can't hurt me

Or is it the fact Jay-Z name has come up millions of times when speaking about ties with the devil??
The video portrays that is the case.
But I'm mad because that is not a good way to attack the subject.
Well i could be wrong but don't try to make a comeback off a diss. Make a come back off of good music and records first. I'm not a big Jay-Z fan but I know he got skills. And he not going to pay attention to this video. Dont get me wrong Hammer had skills in his own time but this was not a good way to attack the subject of if an artist is into the devil.
These are my thoughts.
What are yours? comment below and say whatever u like. thanks for reading

Through Wit Ur Shit

I'm so through with you..
Life.. you seem to make fights
U seem to push the life outta my life
I don't understand how joy and hurt can come from you
i don't understand why i run from the truth
U are nothing good
Nothing that a ever be right
Ur broken in the dark wit a small flashlight
and I'm
just lost..
I'm just a cause for your sickness to get worst
I thought that i was helping at first
But this CANT work
this will not
i keep feeding myself pain when it can stop
God says their is room to forgive but he never said its room to stick around
Gut says its really time to exit now
I liked it better when u were inches away
Hours from my brain
Blocked and in a door
Ignored by my soul
Fueled by hate i let you go
but Love is a mothafucker that bitch can re-grow
planted seeds look at me.. it spouts in the snow
but I'm serious now
I'm ready to let go.
ready to believe in myself ready to know something new
Something that is true bright and stands out
Clean and glistens for me to wear when all weather out
Tears touch my cheeks... chic...
i wish to express smiles that march with fleets
that show on sleeves
that is confident with so much belief
I'm through with you. I locked the door blew up the room
No more mentions in conversations
No more wishing for different situations
No more as if u never existed
you never EXISTED
U WILL NOT EXIST
Be Gone.. I'm through with your shit

Im Writing A Book..And Peep my performance

I stood up on stage looking out at everyone in A trans. I have not seen a lot of my fellow rappers and the Baltimore Scene in a long time. Last time I seen them I was angry.. A open mic after my break-up. It was a alright performance. But prior to that the night before my life changed and who I was at that moment was about to change too. I will not waste no more time talking about this after this I say to myself but this had to get out. Im writing a book.. see an some below ..

Queen Of The Mic 2010 I was dumped after the show looking for support from my boyfriend of seven years hoping he would be there for me. Instead, I got the total opposite. He was angry that I bothered him at a party and felt I angered him so much that he had to leave the party. When we exchanged words over the phone and he told me to get over it, I went home angry, packing a bag to stay overnight ignoring him. We then started to fuss and go back and forth. I charged at him with frustration when he questioned what have I done for him lately. It was wrong. I was wrong. Apologies were said but he had made up his mind. He didn’t want to be in the relationship no more. He was “taird” of me. In disbelief I asked him was he sure. He was sure all right. I would not know till months later he had been sure for a long time and maybe he just pitched me the biggest favor ever. He was confused yet made up his mind I wasn’t the woman for him. So with that I fell into something of a depression and a determination never to be that stupid girl again. The one who never would hurt this man and put 100% into a man who just cheated on me and dragged me threw his confused ways all of our relationship. The lies and the risk involved dealing with someone like him I didn’t see until after the relationship. Sure it was good times but damn he did so much to me. I walked away from the mic and would spend countless hours in my room sleep. Waiting to go to work again. That’s all I looked forward to. My friends at the post office. When you cater to someone most of your life and never make time to have a life outside your significant other its hard to bounce back.

So I took the stage Aug. 18th with a determination to excel. To express my feelings like I need to when I write. This situation weighed on me for so long, that I can not be the carrier of someone else any longer. I am a good person and I put my all into something that was false. So getting on that stage showed me all that needs to matter is me right now and getting this music and school right.. Yes im writing a book… peep video for a look into how it will be promoted.

My Bad Lover, I was being Stupid

My bad I was being stupid..
Stood by your side when I was so clueless
Wasn’t too bright
Blinded by ya so called light
I fell off and never regained my LIFE
Boy I gave u my all and with that I lost sight
Lost my grip on the mic
Lost my flight
Once a cheater, always a cheater
Liar, deceiver, actor playing lead role
A mental abuse
You was the beater
Feeder to my sexual desire
But lacked love and all it appliances
I was your front
Your trophy you hide behind
So nobody a kno the secrets they find
Its unfortunate
I would never hurt you or provoke u to cry
But you loved 2 do that me
What crazy shit I find
Laying in the jungle of lies
Disgusting and you wanting something I could never produce
I drive myself insane with the poison you feed me wit forbidden fruit
But I wish you the best as I close this chapter of mine
Close that angle in my mind
Yes this is the final good-bye
Ive said it too many times
But this here feels so sincerer
I don’t love you no more that is so FUCKIN clear
Clearer then I never thought it could
Should a left years ago when it was the 1st time
KNOCK ON WOOD
Who got the short stick
Me myself and I
For being that dumb chick

It all breaks its too late, I feel hate.. but I can take partial blame
Never give second chances to dancing flames..

Pick Up At ya last point of Progress

Activities as of late made me really reflect on the moves I am soon to make and who will be there and who will not.

I had some really bad backsliding days. But a close friend of mine put things in a better perspective for me.

Don’t look at them as backsliding days, look at them as a revisit to old habits, he said, as long as you learn from them and pick up at the point of progress you good..

He is wise.

God knows all we do and all we are. He knows what moves we make before we make them because he knows our hearts. I put my faith more and more in GOD as the days go. I cant sit here and wine and complain too much cause I come alone way from what I was three or four months ago.

So today I found my center peace again. I really don’t care about much right now but myself and developing a stronger relationship with god, my music, family and myself.
Nothing else is even authentic. Sometimes I slip into worlds I wish I was in again but end up hurting myself because the reality can be so painful.

Escaping into music and rebuilding my soul. I must stay in control.

Please visit http://www.ladyjinxxx.com for info on the music.

I got more shows tossed my way and if only I can stay more focused I will be ok..
I cant find happiness in a failed love or a upside confused soul. Someone who is hesitant on you is hesitant on themselves

I Cant Go Back In Time..But U be Apart Of Me..

JUST YESTERDAY it seems me and my people Cash and Lavar was headed up Salisbury, MD to make music. Those were the days I had just started my company B.ALIVE. Everyone couldn’t come to my homegirl Shonte A.K.A dutch house to make music but us three would go. Kick it and talk, geek and make hot records together. We all are different places in our life now. Cash and dutch are members of the company still but just associated because of distance and mindset but I look at em as distant cousins that are still fam and Lavar a.k.a Conscious has been out of b.alive for sometime and have joined other groups but we still civil. I say that little bit to say my my has time passed. That was about four years ago.

When I sometimes sit back and think about how fast time is passing that shit fucking scares me. 7 yr relationship ended this year and FUCK where did the time go? Before I pressed delete on the last visual memories I had on the relationship I read the caption anniversary 22 Dec. 4years!!! DELETE! Next picture 6yrs next week, DAMNNN !! Delete..

If only it was that simple to delete memories like the computer does.

Wasted time and wasted energy.. sometimes to do what necessarily in life?
I been waiting on other people a lot of my years for something. Shit I blink and im 22yrs old.

Just yesterday I was crying my eyes out at graduation cause I thought I loose my high school sweet heart. Fuck 5 years ago. Shit flash back 3years ago quit school to focus on music cause I couldn’t do both, damn fast forward im here back in school when my generation (most of em) walked across the stage this year. My mind wonders. I get fustrated at the shit that ive done in the past but I cant change it. I cant reverse age and fucking change shit about where iam now.

I point blame. Gather hate in my chest because some shit I feel ive done has side tracked me.

What happened to miss independent? Miss wait on no man? Lmao DIED !! 3years ago. Waitied on a house. To be married. To have kids. To chase dreams. To graduate. To get mine. And I can honestly say the cast of love, distraction and self battles are to blame.

FUCK U A.D.D (Attention Deficit Disorder)

Fuck u Love

Fuck u Ave. (myself)

Lmao just kidding. These things are stepping stones… part of me! And tho I want to yell it so badly and be mad so bad at the decisions and wasted time I have made I can only look forward. I been making some mistakes lately. Slipping from my mountain of hurt I been climbing. But it just dawned on me……

Do I want to wait another second, minute, hour, day, YEAR worried about what I don’t have verses what can come to me?

FUCK NO!

So I revist those days and trips I sat wit my x-boyfriend laughing at the dog and looking at each other eyes and watching him sleep this morning

And I revisit trips seeing my friends, recording good music and havin a good time on the ride up to see Dutch this morning teaching myself a lesson…

They are memories. They are things I cant get back and redo. Its over. Its over and its not now. The time I have now is what I must live. Time to just let it be what it is and do what I must do for my future. My goals. Stick to the plan..

Let it go..

Dont Backslide..

Listening to Monica’s song “Believing In Me” off of her new album and I must say it’s the type of song I should live by right now.(LOL) Yesterday I revisited the twightlight zone and found myself backsliding. Artist sometimes speak to our souls when we hurt and go threw things.
One of my favorite artist that speak to me believe it or not is not a hip-hop artist. Her name is Dito. Now my hip-hop heads wondering who is that and why is it not a rapper? Well for one ppl who ask that question, just because I’ am a rapper don’t mean I gotta dig hip-hop artist as tha favorite lol BUT BACK ON TOPIC

I heard her speak to me yesterday as I was backsliding saying “Don’t Slide” one of her lines in her first album. I took those words and kept rocking.

SO on that note I learned a lesson. Don’t inhale tha bullshit again if you already exhaled. Let it go. Let it flow in the direction away from you. Sometimes God takes people out your life, so don’t chase after them, I was told this morning. And I will follow that with friends and whoever .

So I been in procrastination mode for a min in my music career and my school work. It is this class I know that’s coming up that I can get a jump-start on but instead I let the book collect dust. And its beats that need a ripping and a whipping but again I let them sit. Smh.. so I got work to do. On a good note I go to the studio like every week now, putting music together. On a bad note mann the tracks sometimes can be laid much better.

My crew I see is under construction too. Sometimes it don’t get threw to them my intentions. So I think I gotta be more sincere when speaking about the direction and personal shit they must do along with me. We at that age where we can shoot for dreams but we also need that back up plan to the back up plan. Life should not revolve round other ppl but ourselves in order to advance and gain the comfort we need to sit and be happy. No backslide just forward progression up the steps of life.  On that note..

Till next time….

Plez Tell Me God -- Jinxxx

NEW SONG PEEP IT. IM A LIL OFF AND ON ABOUT IT BUT I FELT IT A BIG DEAL IN THE BOOTH. IT WAS LIKE YELL THERPY FOR ME LOL. PEEP IT

FOCUS PUSH ACT AND ACCOMPLISH- Dedicate- discipline

I have learned the most important lesson this year, yesterday as I talked to my aunt, co-workers and myself.

My aunt said its best. "Its time to focus on you and don't ever put someone higher then yourself or god, because then that makes them a GOD and its ONLY ONE GOD." Well said Auntie!!

Then my co-worker told me, "just give things time and see what i grow to be but its outside those doors of your house, go get it!" Damn RIGHT co-worker lol.

The funny thing is people been telling me for a minute to do me and i was. But somewhere i had got lost again. Caught up in the battles of love and confusion i had seriously thought i was missing something and couldn't got on without it. Only thing missing i told this man a few days back is Dedication and Discipline. They go hand and hand with anything. You can not have discipline with out dedication. Each day that go by its a battle. And i cant put it all on love because love is not all i am missing now. Love and being in a relationship i put my all into. That was my fault. I should a put half of me into it but never loose myself. Trust And Believe I lost myself.

Its been bout three months. and I cried like a little child yesterday lol. but not just because he is gone lol BECAUSE I WAS GONE!!!

MUSIC has saved me again!! And so will GOD in due time. When I DISCIPLINE AND DEDICATE TIME :-) I AM MORE AND MORE!!

Im meant for something more.

So that being said. I set the date for my video. 27th of this month. Also I got a Chicago try out this week via video that I am excited about and also I am grabbing them guys together. B.ALIVE guys. That's my company. My Baby. I been giving the members in the company space not because of me but personal issues we all seem to have. But don't cut us short.

Iam also almost done my project.
Also Stepping out on a leaf this Saturday taking some exotic fitness for my stage performance and to get in shape lol. :-) love that.

Dedicate, and discipline.
One of my old sayings was simple
FOCUS PUSH ACT AND ACCOMPLISH
if u have that mind frame you are unstoppable.
I had it at one point.
I will get it back.

till next time.

Motivation was good to eat.

Sharpen my skills and ready to just do what I need to in order to take myself to a new level. I am excited as I see now its more to do and its more out there then these little problems I have. I will begin classes to improve stage performance next week and also help me tone up.

I also have a video in the makes that I am excited about that will be promotion for my mixtape as i work on another project.

A deal came threw with a Chicago connect. If they like me i will be there in Sept. at their african fest. I am blessed. Maybe somethings are ment to happen after all.

I composed a good outline yesterday of my weekly direction. It was good to try to put myself on a schedule. I know many people dont think I can do it but i damn sure will try. My moms say i never stick to most of the stuff i say i will do. Motivation ate! It was good lol so i will try harder.

The biggest move is making them inside then working your ways outside. I have to work harder! I have to be stronger

the mind bender.. Being there for me.

I'm at work thinking. I got so much waiting for me its just time to get it. Sunday I head to NYC for the "D.M.V meets NYC" showcase. Also got a shot to perform in chicago for their african fest. So all this sits there waiting for me. But this little man is in my head throwing shit out of order. Its also a woman there too confused. Never thought I be one of those woman so effected by a man but I am. Seven years gone is hard to forget. Its been two months and my ass struggles to still move on from a cheating ass lie. Two times. Eve said love is blind. HELL YEA. But I made the choice a day ago not to be put into this game no more. Why beg for something back that was not cool anyways. So I step into the music and hopes it saves me again.

I went to the mall today with a close friend. As I went I threw out the mind bender and lived. I had fun with my friend and peeped my music as the step that needs to work with my school. I am slowly getting back on track but I have a cold heart. I been so different additude wise. I kinda like it. Not giving a fuck can get you far if u choose not to give a fuck about certain things that deserve it.

NYC Sunday such be a boost.
A nice little vacation with someone who cares about me is coming up too.. can't wait..

Music, mind ,body, soul
Educate grow and let shit go.
A lot of people don't care. They pull ya string and laugh at u. Leave u fucked
I can't be that person no more.
I gotta be there for me.

Personal Look/Hip-Hop With Substance

The biggest let down a person can allow to happen is the one you issue to yourself. I allowed that to happen today. I most definitely took a loss today by allowing my emotions block me from progress. I got to big bump to get over and I entertained something I already knew the answer to. End result was a fail to myself because I put myself back.

Shifting my focus back on music im a continue to blog and treat this here joint like a dairy or outlet that partners with music and school. Getting in the habit of dedicating time to something such as this shall help me with dedicating time period. Lets see if I can keep it a habit.

Anyways to other news I been listening to a lot of old school rap lately. Bumping that music it in my car everyday. I notice one important factor that everyone whos a hip-hop head should notice. Back then the messages in the music was the key. A club track had a hot beat and the messages were there in the music. Those who dont know what I speak of listen to the the song by CHUBB ROCK : “Treat Em Right” peep the video below





The video wasn’t much but the song was a hit all around. A club song that had a message. Its many more by I raise the question why do this do not exsist anymore? Why is it so absent and what the fuck is “My Doggie” go sit ya doggie ass down somewhere. Wheres ya message. See in most of my songs I try to deliver a message and stomp out my stereotype while others flow with the stream. The bum rush of old school james have really lifted my spirts Heavy D “We Gotta Own Thang” was like a club track with a message once again for that time. Do you remember “Gangsta’s Paradise” by Coolio. Not a club track but had a message in it that maybe people cant see. The words in it by the vocalist “tell me why are we/ so blind to see/ that the ones we hurt/ are you and me” .. I guess messages don’t mean much to people no more. Honestly I don’t know what the hell Lil Wayne is saying most of the time. The punchlines are nice but dude what are you talking about. No substance. Based on what I heard from him which maybe ten songs maybe that’s all I can say about yo. But check it, lets have more substance and meaning in our rhymes people. Lets bring at least that element of hip-hop back..


side bar: didnt chubb rock remind u of biggy in that video and the guy in the white was puffy?? lmao JUST A JOKE!!

In Perspective.

Registering for my fall classes and I know its going to be a tough semester. My mind is on the road of recovery. Its better then it was before the sudden break-up. Who would a knew this shit a be so hard and good at the same time. When things take place in our lives and we loose something important to us, we soon see the broad picture that was being blocked by what we thought was important. My friends, I don’t have many. They seasonal like sports. Some I see quick to jump hills when you need them the most. Also put in perspective is how much I dislike living in Baltimore. I want to see so much more then this. I want to expand and just go. I want so much. Also my family has been put in perspective, how much I havnt been around some parts of my family and how I should be around. All this has come clear because of one misplacement or loss. Weird huh?

My music is my closest friends besides three of my co-workers lol.

Doesn’t that make me sound pathetic??

But I know I’m not pathetic.
I know I’m unique in ways that can not be expressed into a humans mind. They really don’t make woman like me no more. May sound cocky but damn it’s the truth and I can better show you then tell you. The outlook on one self has definitely broadened though I still gotta a lot of work to do. Clearing my mind to look at the bigger things in life.

Anyways I head back to the studio tomorrow to record two tracks maybe three. One name “Dance Like Beyonce” LOL very different type of track that has a swing to it. If I lay it right it may be something. Next track called “ Single”, opening my arms to the world of being single with a club beat that many should relate to . and last but not least the track “Over Years” expresses how my fuck ups and missed opportunities have made time past me and im just reflecting on shit I can not change. If I get to three tracks I shall be happy.

My musical clan I have decided that I can not take care of currently to the full potential that I would like to. Im saving for a house and don’t have the funds to push men in the direction they need to be pushed in. Im still working with them but the site being closed down until further notice is the best next step for now. $20.00 a month for a website that’s not getting any new updates shows and so forth should be put on the back burner. The guys need studio time. The guys need to write. The guys need to get some things in order and so do I . We all on the same page almost.

Things are coming to an order in my head.
Not so clutter.
Not so distressed ..
But perfectly clear
In perspective.

No Issue (F**K IT) -- JINXXX New Song

Check out this new hip-hop.. For more on me and my music go to www.LadyJinxxx.com

Take Control Of My Life..

Ive come to the conclusion that my dreams and the things I reach for are all in my control if I gain control. Life for me is so unbalanced. I have millions of ideas to double money, a dream to be a rapper and a heart to help whoever I can by a extent. I go to school, I work full time and try to hit the studio but dwell on the things that are missing such as Love and Friendship, or a lost 7 yr relationship.

Today I found myself sleeping more hours then usual. I had no drive to get up and deal with anything. I didn’t want to work out and I didn’t want to be bothered but then I did get up, hit the grocery store and hit IHOP with a friend. I pulled myself into the driver seat because I felt as tho I wasn’t driving. This is how my life is with everything. I need to take the wheel. I need to grab a hold of my life dreams and shoot for it instead of talking.

This life is not promised. This life was given and I have a gift.. I gotta take control. I HAVE to take control!! I must take control. If I don’t I will never drive the roads I want to be on.. SIMPLE AS THAT!

Negative ppl i need to get rid of...
I cant be like everyone else.
Iam not like everyone else..

What am i waiting for..?

She's Gone

Old school joint blasting "shes gone" and yes i been gone for a very long time from blogging and expression of how i feel and whats been going on. Writing has always been my outlet but i put that into someone i shouldn't had. Instead of using the mic as a outlet i used another crutch. My boyfriend of 7yrs. But two months ago he walked out on me. He abandon me and left me for dead for his own reasons of dumbness. It knocked me off my feet and today i stand new. I have to stand new. IM 22! and im looking for my music to save me once again. Im looking for that mic to wave at me and im looking for all direction in the world. One thing you don't do is invest time into only one thing no matter what you do. MEANING i put too much time into something that failed. When i could have been multi tasking stroking music and him at the same time. lol. Sounds raw don't it? Am i angry? HELL YES iam. I wont be the same. But in a way not being the same can be the best move i make.

Shes GONE

Yes i was but im back now. Its not like anyone missed the girl or anything because my work has not really put in like it should have ..

I WAS LOST! keep me sain now keep me good I pray.

Im still lost but the point is i made advances to change that.

It was his lost and i came to terms wit it and its my lost cause of so much time i wasted rejecting my other love... MUSIC!

So im a try to get focus now. Vent more. Write more. Learn more And DO IT! enough talk. ACTION IS THE RIGHT MOVE!

peace till next Time

Fascination Wit Rhymester

Fascination with Rhymester
最高、まじ神↑This mean is Best　Best　BEST!!! lol

A couple years ago I was told I could possibly go to Japan and do a show with my B.ALIVE camp. I was excited. The Japanese culture to me is so interesting because they are so smart and creative with their arts and movies. Of course it didn’t happened as I left the business of Street Legal but it is what it IS! So yesterday I was doing some homework on Hip-Hop. That’s one of the things im best known for J lol but I ran into Rhymester. A group out of Japan that does hip-hop. Instantly I was hooked with them peep the video below. Hip-hop lives through out the world that’s why it is so powerful.. Now if only I can get a collab lol.

o i put some of their lyrics below too to the first verse



http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NoLYHDWvPEY




We love Hip Hop Do you like Hip Hop?People, please, Put your hands up & say Yeah! （Mummy-D）I love Hip Hop Music This Bad Boy Music is retchedYou are my daily routine since Im absorbed in it in my early teensOf course, now, Im your slave, because my pride that I cant flatter the mass mediaIm lovin you but you entirely dont love meBitch, Smile for me! I want to part from you now But the more you take a defiant attitude the more I love you this is irony